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Update

Well I think it's time I updated my About Me section!

I am not a virgin anymore, I still haven't had an orgasm though, but I've been close and probably could have one if I wanted to.

I don't live with my parents anymore. I don't study anymore, I work a part-time job of 37.5 hours per week.

I live with a male flatmate - he was the one I lost my virginity to.

I've put on weight these past few years, and I according to the weight/height printout I did at the shopping centre I should be 20kgs lighter! Yikes! I'm still rather lazy and lacking in will-power when it comes to food, so I probably won't be losing that 20kgs anytime soon. I'm considered on uglier side of average. That is dissappointing, but people don't openly mock me, that's the main thing.

I'm more outgoing and go out a LOT more than I did when living with my parents. I am a hard worker (not having homework probably has a lot to do with it). The thing I miss most about living with my parents is having to cook for myself. Mum made such delicious dinners.

My sexuality

WARNING: This post contains adult material. You should not read this post if you are under 18.

I am a straight female. I sometimes wish I had been born male. I wouldn't want to change to a male though, because I am straight and because I don't like hospitals, much less the thought of an operation. I am happy dressing in unisex clothes in public and more masculine looking clothes at home. I would like to properly dress up as a male in the future, perhaps when I leave home.

I don't like wearing dresses or skirts. I only have one dress, and that's the dress I wore to my Year 12 formal and to my cousins wedding. I only dress up and wear make-up for special occasions and going out. I would prefer to dress like a guy these times too, but I'll never attract any men if I do!

I am a virgin. I think I would like to stay that way until I am at least 25. I would be willing to participate in oral sex and other forms of sexual activity if I get a boyfriend.

I have had casual oral sex, both giving and receiving.

I have never had a boyfriend, but I want one now. When I was younger I used to reject boys whenever they asked me out. I just took longer to develop socially. When I was in year 8 and other girls were getting boyfriends, I was still stuck in the 'eww, boy germs' phase (though I did think about boys).

I don't have a boyfriend now, because I don't get out enough. I don't think I'm ugly, just plain. Sure, I could afford to lose a couple of centimetres around the waistline, but I'm not obese.

I thoroughly enjoy reading femdom BDSM stories online. My favourite site for this was http://www.bdsmlibrary.com

My favourite sexual fantasy involves having a strong male tied spreadeagled on a bed, and bringing him to the brink of orgam, and keeping him there until he is really desperate and begging. I'd then hurt him a little, then watch him until his erection subsided and repeat. I'd then set him free and have him pleasure me. When I had enough pleasure I would then allow him to wack off.

I sometimes cyber, and consider myself a bit of an online domme.

I like the leather look and would also like to dress that way in the future. I don't have any piercings, and don't really want any.

I used to think I was a sick weirdo, but when I turned 18 and started exploring the Internet in greater depth, I found there were other people like me. I never read any erotica, or looked at any porn until I turned 18 (I also never drank alcohol until I turned 18 either).

You can imagine how terrible I felt to enjoy imagining tormenting and hurting men for my own pleasure. I do (and did) know the difference between life and fantasy, but I still felt bad about it.

Even if after reading the above you think I AM a sick weirdo, at least I know there are others out there (and a lot worse than me).

An overview of me

You can read most of this stuff in my profile; but hey, this is an introductory post!

I'm a female Australian, and was born in December 1985. I live in NSW.

I am a quiet, shy sort of person and will often listen more than I talk when in a group of people.

I enjoy philosophy, psychology, science fiction (books, movies, games, etc.), erotica, computing, puzzles, games, surfing the Internet, reading, writing, documentaries, watching TV, being creative, politics, listening to music, solving problems, chatting, thinking and discussing the big questions.

I am a virgin and intend to stay that way. That doesn't mean I won't do other stuff ;-). I have never had a boyfriend (I am straight), so I have never had the opportunity for any form of REAL sexual activity. I sometimes cyber, and consider myself an online domme. I am not a switch or submissive.

I am currently involved in AAFC (Australian Air Force Cadets). I started cadets in August 2000. Minimum age is 12 1/2. Maximum age is 19, must leave when one turns 20 (but maximum joining age is 17, one can't join when one turns 18). I enjoy AAFC very much.

Here is the AAFC site: http://www.aafc.adfc.gov.au/

I'm not very active, but I do what is necessary to stay healthy.

I dislike shopping, cleaning and other household chores.

If I am pushed into anything, I will automatically resist. I can become very stubborn at times.

I am a good listener and problem solver. I like to think of myself as an independent arbiter. I try to view things from a neutral viewpoint. Many people tell me that I am interesting and different. I have an inquisitive nature and will often ask (what may seem like pointless) questions. I am willing to try new things. I am a fairly patient person, and don't get frustrated easily. I enjoy taking my time and can be a perfectionist.

I have a bad tendancy to procrastinate. This has caused me to do poorly in my studies because of all the last-minute work with little study. If I could get rid of this bad habit I think I would excel. I completed my HSC, but I failed Maths. I could have done much better if I only did things without putting them off.

My life goals are to seek knowledge and improve myself.